Thursday, May 7, 2015

I have 2 apologies to make

I realized after hitting publish on yesterday's post, I may owe a few of you an apology, or two.

While I wholeheartedly admit I am in fact a "complete wreck," it's not fair of me to drag everyone else under the bus along with me.

What I should have said is, "In fact, if we're honest with each other, I think we'll admit we are all in fact a little bit of a wreck. At least on some days."

Phew. There it is. It's been bothering me since I hit publish and rushed my family out the door for church last night.

Sure, I could have gone back and edited my post. However, this wreck-that-I am felt the need to be real and say, "I am sincerely sorry. My enthusiasm and emotion over getting real with myself got the best of me yesterday. My intention was not to diagnosis you, but simply to be raw & real."

Although, hopefully my intent came through in the rest of my post.

For me, being a wreck is allowing myself to finally be human. It means getting off the perfectionism train.

I'm learning how to live in the moment and be fully alive, without trying to worry about whether I am saying things "just-so" (as yesterday's post so 'beautifully' exhibits. Ha.)
Part of this process is learning to find and use my unique voice.

And, it's about allowing myself both to be messy and get messy in the process.

[In case you are wondering, being messy and getting messy are incredibly uncomfortable for me. I allowed myself to be extremely raw and vulnerable last night. Good news, I survived.
Bad news? I'm still recovering this morning. Two steps forward, one step back? Ah, that's what 'they say.' But, hey, life is an adventure...right?!?]

So, here's to 'progress not perfectionism!'

My other apology? That one goes out to the Fans of Fuzzy Die Worldwide. Yes, they do add a nice flair to certain vehicles from the '70's. Personally? They just aren't my thing. [grin.]

Keep pressing into the LORD, and KEEP LIVING A BLESSED LIFE!

With grace & gratitude,

Photo credit: Amy Jo Ivey / Jeepster Commondo with Green Fuzzy Die / Cathlamet, WA / Easter '14

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