Monday, December 13, 2010

blessed be Your name

"Blessed be Your name
On the road marked with suffering
Though there's pain in the offering
Blessed be Your name
Every blessing Your pour out
I'll turn back to praise
And when the darkness closes in
Lord, still I will say
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your name
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your name
You give and take away
You give and take away
My heart will choose say
Lord, blessed be Your name"
Matt Redman

We're still here. We're still alive. We're still praising God.

We thought we had hit rock bottom three months ago - but the bottom has dropped out twice now. Just when we thought the situation couldn't get any bigger, any more serious or any more heartbreaking.

But God is still God and I will forever sing His praises.

Our family is in the midst of an intense battle - and we are fighting it on many fronts.

We've walked through the fires of Hell before and God brought us through. He made us stronger through that devastating season and I have no doubt He will do it again. This time, however, the wounds go even deeper and impact even more people. Our hearts have been ripped out, torn in two and stomped on.

But God is bigger than our situation. He is a redeeming God and His mercy endures forever.

The pain is beyond bearable. The storm keeps on raging. The tears keep on flowing.

And yet, we still find joy. We still find peace. We still find laughter.

It's one of the greatest mysteries of God - the ability to hold two opposing emotions in tandem.

We have every reason to forsake God. Our situation has been compared to that of Job - and on some days I tend to agree. Like Job, we refuse to curse Him and die. Quite the opposite - we have never clung to Him more closely.

Even on our darkest days, He has held us up. Especially through the amazing friends He continues to place in our lives. (Thank you is never enough - but you know who you are and all you have done to love, support and pray for us. Our hearts are eternally grateful. Thank you for standing by us in spite of the awful details you've had to listen to. You've cried with us, you've fasted for us, you've selflessly poured yourself and your resources into us. And, you've help us keep our hands raised in prayer and faith when we grew weary. You are amazing, Sweet Friends. So, so AMAZING!!!)

He is so faithful to give us all when need - exactly when we need it.

We have every reason to be angry, bitter and to seek revenge on the one who has so betrayed us and left us so broken. And yet God continues to give us love and mercy and compassion instead. It absolutely blows my mind the grace He continues to pour through us throughout this horrific situation.

The biggest lesson my family has learned this year is that there really is an enemy of our souls - and he will do everything in his power to steal, kill and destroy. And he will use anyone to accomplish his goal. As much as I would rather paint a pretty picture about God's blessings and goodness - I can't deny that He has an enemy. And, because I profess absolute faith in the One who created me - I have an enemy as well.

The good news? He has nothing over my Savior. He's been defeated once and he will be defeated again.

Until then, I'm going to continue to fight the good fight, holding fast to all that my God is teaching me in the valley. For one day, in His timing, we'll be standing on the mountaintop with our hands raised in praise to the One who brought us victory.

Friend, I've said it before, and I'll say it again. Whatever season you are in, I pray that you know how very much you are loved and valued. No matter how fierce the battle, how deep the pain or how hopeless our situations may appear - God is in control - and He will never, ever fail or forsake us. His love is trustworthy and He is a good God!

Together, may we both keep pressing into Him, and keep LIVING A BLESSED LIFE!

To God be the glory,